gonna be a long one

i realized i haven't blogged in a long time, a really long time. but i think ill get in the habit again.

so things have been going really good. me and Brittany are still together,been just over 6 months, and i can honestly say I'm more in love with her then i have been or think i will ever be with anyone in my life. she is true perfection. as for friends, really haven't lost any but i have gained a couple. one of them is Conner, i don't know what it is about this kid but me and him really get along, we hang out a lot and we both just got back into skateboarding. i bought a truck not too long ago, its a 1987 Toyota pickup 4x4. i have also learned how to snowboard pretty decent and its really fun.

like i said before, things have been going really good... until tonight. i mentioned to Brittany that i might get a couple vicodin from someone whose name I'm not gonna mention and she got pretty upset. now i probably would of not even taken them if i got them, but i mentioned it to her anyways. so she texted me after she dropped me off and i found out i made her cry. now i feel like the biggest asshole in the world. i really fucked up, and i absolutely hate the fact that i made her cry. i love her with every ounce of my being and im not exaggerating either. i have never cared for anyone this much before, its safe to say i would do ANYTHING for her, she is well worth it, and then some. i just don't want to upset her anymore, so yeah i have been crying for like the past 10 mins, and i cant stop. i have never cried this much before. she means the world to me and when i upset her i feel like the lowest life form on this planet. well its late and im gonna try to get some sleep. i hope shit works out.



Peace